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Head full, Heart empty :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Eponine :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Gardenparty :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 3 0 Let go :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 2 0 Faulks :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 3 2 Braisy :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Character Design - Attack on Titan :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 3 0 Aging :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 4 0 Hey Champ :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 2 0 Military :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 3 2 What if :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Banshee :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Five years :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 5 0 Nevermind.. :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Shatter-Squad :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0 Badass Mira :iconmuffinonxtc:MuffinOnXTC 1 0


Faulks deconstruction :iconzdecemberz:zdecemberz 74 4 Guardians :iconmadvanilia:MadVanilia 26 2 Turtle time :iconchocolate-rebel:chocolate-rebel 14 6 Leah Ryder :iconkupieckorzenny:kupieckorzenny 64 8 The Author :icondestinyblue:DestinyBlue 5,036 196 red sky at morning :iconzetsubouzed:ZetsubouZed 66 19 irezumi snow :iconzetsubouzed:ZetsubouZed 52 8 Art trade: Lorelai Ryder :iconkupieckorzenny:kupieckorzenny 50 9 Romance is in the air :iconzdecemberz:zdecemberz 67 9 Knives :iconzdecemberz:zdecemberz 47 3 the bunch :iconstarsandpolkadots:starsandpolkadots 147 43 Mt. Madonna Rd. :iconchateaugrief:chateaugrief 1,253 125 San Luis Reservoir :iconchateaugrief:chateaugrief 1,994 228 It's Hera :iconraikoh-illust:Raikoh-illust 167 4 The Master, Assassin, and General :iconkaelacroftart:KaelaCroftArt 121 4 Chateau Grief 22 :iconchateaugrief:chateaugrief 11 10



Head full, Heart empty
I decided to draw a series of pictures, explaining what depression and other mental illnesses can feel like.
Since I myself found it hard now and then, to explan hiw exactly I was feeling, to friends and family, I thought, maybe I could illustrate it, using metaphors and drawings. So, sometimes my mind is so full of thoughts, crowded and loud, that I can't even hear myself thinking properly.
But at the same time, I don't feel sad or angry, I just feel a kind of emptyness, numb, short: Nothing.
And in that situation it can be hard to explain to people how you feel, because, technically you _don't_ feel anyting, but your also not okay.

I hope this helps some people, or simply gives a small view into mental illness to those not affected by it.
Also, if you are suffering from depression or other mental illnesses, please seek help and support. You are not alone.
So, I recently watched Les Miserables with my Sister, and afterwards I just kinda wanted to draw her, as she's one of my favorite charakters. (Next to Enjolras and Gavroche)
Also, I just spontaniously downloaded a drawing-app for my phone, so... some color :D
I just realized that this webside is only two years younger than me o.O
But I like the idea with the picture thingy *-*
Anyways, happy birthday DeviantArt!
Let go
I did it. It happened. I did the color-thingy.. And it turned out better then expected, wich makes me really happy :3
This picture kinda has a personal meaning to me, and simply sketching it, may have helped me process some things.
So I wanted to share it :)

Songs that inspired me:

Brandenn Bremmer - Jamie's Wedding Song

The Echo of Japan - The Musik of Kaoru Wada
This Character, whose name is Faulks, is an OC of zdecemberz , who draws buttloads of awesome pictures with even more of her wonderful Characters. A recent Tumblr-Post of hers inspired me to sketch this one Character.
Faulks is Agender, and I've decidet to draw them with and without their wigs. I'm not quit happy with the one in the middle, but the rest came out good, and I wanted to share it anyways.

As said, Faulks is an OC of zdecemberz

.. I tried at clothing and I failed.


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Hi.. I guess?
I am just a little hobby-artist, who doodles on the back of worksheets in class and fangirls over other peoples OC's.
I don't upload everyday or every week or every whatsoever, I just draw little thingies and when I like them, they go here :D
Anyways, thanks for strolling along on my beautiful *cough*notsomuch*cough* page.
Hope you have a nice day :)


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SlingBlade87 Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2016
Thanks for the fave on the three brothers, be sure to check out :iconcrimsonight:'s gallery as well!
MuffinOnXTC Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016
You're very welcome, I'll do so!
EngelsSchwert Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Noch mal danke für den fav ;)
kupieckorzenny Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch!
MuffinOnXTC Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2016
You are very welcome :)
EngelsSchwert Featured By Owner Edited May 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, danke für den Fav <3
Ich hab auch immer auf den Rückseiten meiner Arbeitsblätter gekrizzelt xD Tolle Nebenbeschäftigung in der Schule
MuffinOnXTC Featured By Owner May 23, 2016
Immer gerne :D
Ist immer witzig, wenn man plötzlich auf alten Chemie-Zetteln Bilder findet xD
EngelsSchwert Featured By Owner May 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Bei mir wars immer Mathe, hab ich eh nie verstanden xD 
Besonders lustig ist es erst, wenn man die schule beendet und sich fragt ob man das ganze zeug weg schmeißen soll, weil man es nicht mehr braucht, oder wegenden Bildern behalten soll ^^'
Kiara2909 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey there! 
Thanks for the fav! :heart:
MuffinOnXTC Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2016
You are very welcome :)
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